"Do you want to know who you really are? Take a hard look at your private life—especially your innermost thoughts. Gaze into the mirror of God’s Word, and allow it to disclose and correct the real thoughts and motives of your heart."
Read that again. Now one more time. This was the closing statement of Pastor John's post here on there being nothing safe about secret sin. You REALLY need to read this post, and really really need to read this post if you think for one second that you don't need to read this post.
Someone once said something to me that left me undone. You've heard it before I'm sure, and that saying goes more or less like this "what kind of Christian are you when no one's looking?" Ouch. Truth be told, sometimes I'm exactly the person you read at this blog, and other times I'm on the laundry room floor bawling like a 4 yr old that got the broken candy cane. You know how kids act when they get the broken one - it's monumental and the whole world is supposed to be revolving around them, and serving them unbroken candy canes! Yep, momentary episodes of pure selfishness and lack of faith. Ouch again.
Moving right along...
You might recognize this from the sidebar at TeamPyro. Phil routinely lists good books, audio and web links that he's currently enjoying, under this little heading. I click the links there quite often, and did that very thing night before last, to this link that Phil called "The last enemy that shall be destroyed". I stayed up well beyond my bed time to scroll through the entire story as my dial up connection was smoking and sputtering to load each picture. It was worth it.
I continually amaze myself with my selfishness when I can click a link like that and still wallow in my own pathetic whinery. No, I did not mean winery. If you click that link and follow the story of this mother and her son, and you do not feel compelled to tell yourself to 'stick a sock in it' and it does not break your heart, then you just don't have a heart to begin with.
I could have listed a bunch of other stuff for this week (and last, since I didn't 'Fodder last week either) but I want to focus on these two. Besides, I keep getting disconnected from my ISP and every time I do, I lose what I've written. I wont whine too much about that, but that is annoying.
Off with you now, go read Pastor John's post, then go look at the link Phil posted. It'll change your perspective BIG TIME.